Sick and Tired

I’m so sick and tired
of the demons playing
the sadness hardwired
anxiety baying

I’m so sick and tired
of the dark side preying
the cold black I esquire
and senses still rotting?

I’m so sick and tired
of all of my straying
the people I admire
they know I’m draining

I’m so sick and tired
of the demons playing
maybe I should expire
I don’t see me winning

Nervous Notes I

In order for me to calm down, I need:
a pill that soothes my mind,
a certain number of supporting hands,
someone who can pick my brain for an hour,
and comforting, assuring words

but my support system is nothing
when I do not follow their advice,
when I suddenly teleport to an unknown place,
when I let my own worries eat my future

I do not want to gain more nicknames,
“Stubborn Sumbitch”
“The Test of Patience”
“The Bridge Burner”
or simply a lost cause

In a war inside my head,
reinforcements can only do so much
I want my sanity to come home
But it’s a war I have to win alone

 

Sunday Night Questions II

Hello, dear Dispatch. I’m back, and I’m doing another Sunday Night Questions! This is where I answer at least 5 questions about this week’s happenings, discoveries, and anything in between, as long as it can be answered by a “Yes” or a “No”. Elaboration on the answer is optional.

Anyway, let’s get to it!


1. Have you learned something about someone this week?

Yes. A thousand times yes! In fact, I’ve learned a lot about more than one person actually. I mean, I totally believe that everyone has a story waiting to be told and it’s up to you if you want to know them.


2. Was your work this week much easier than last week’s?

No. Good grief. Last Friday night was the worst.


3. Have you seen any new movies this week?

Yes! But it’s not really new. It’s Moana. I know… I suck for being this late.


4. Is your pet cat Vienna eating well?

Yes. In fact, she has been eating more than she has ever had in years! Good thing I am alternating what I serve in her bowl. (Whiskas or Friskies seafood platter in the morning, plain tuna chunks in the evening.)


5. Was everyone replying to your messages?

Yes. Fuck yes. (smiles)


That wraps up my second set of SNQs! And oh my God. I have a feeling that I will be another overtime streak this coming week. Wish me luck?