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Song of the Moment LXXXV: Anson Seabra’s “I Can’t Carry This Anymore”

Trigger warning: This is a short post, but it has themes of depression and suicide. Please be advised.

10-Minute Warning CLXIX

So, what can I write here under 10 minutes?

I have a few posts lined up, but after a certain discouraging conversation about my mental health from yesterday (while I was trying a different version of my favorite affogato, mind you), I don’t feel like posting them for now. In fact, today, I feel too sad to write, exercise, or even work. (But I had to finish the latter because obviously it’s work.)

Will I be better or at least get over it by this weekend? I really don’t know. Good luck to me, perhaps.

Published on March 12, 2025 at 10:54pm. Minor edits were made at 10:57pm.

Song of the Moment LXI: Jim Johnston’s “The Undertaker (Original Piano Demo)” (Again)

One of the things I look forward to during the holiday season is Spotify Wrapped. The minute 2024 Wrapped was released, I got excited and checked all the year-end statistics and playlists. It was like opening gifts on Christmas Day.

Upon checking and top songs playlist of 2024 (which has 100 songs overall), I learned that my top 1 song is Living Colour’s “Cult of Personality (Remastered 2023)“. I love the original version, but I have been listening to the remastered version more because it is the current version that CM Punk (one of my favorite pro wrestlers ever) uses as his WWE theme song, and I have been listening a lot. No wonder it’s my top 1 song of this year.

After checking “Cult of Personality” and the rest of the top 10, my eyes went straight to number 13. And what’s on number 13? It’s Jim Johnston’s piano demo of the theme song of my top 1 favorite pro wrestler, The Undertaker. I had a feeling that the piano instrumental would make it to the top 15 (if not the top 10) because I have experienced numerous sad days this 2024 and I have listened to the instrumental to give me comfort while letting me feel the melancholy.

The piano demo of The Undertaker’s theme song, created by Jim Johnston.

Now that I mentioned it, I will listen to the piano demo to relax my nerves. Today I had a long day at work and I finally got to walk and jog at my favorite jogging path after more than a week, so a peaceful wind-down is in order.

Thank you once again, Mr. Jim Johnston. Again I say, you should have been in the WWE Hall of Fame years ago. I hope you get inducted next year, sir.

Header image: Brett Sayles of Pexels. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2024.