Gratitude Log I

Today, I’d like to thank my uncle for bringing me to work. It rained for a bit, but it did not affect the metro traffic. In fact, it was a really smooth 40-minute ride that I was able to take a 5 or 6 minute nap.

Today, I’d like to thank the office janitor for opening the air-con unit even if I arrived an hour early. Like I said, it rained for a bit. It was also a bit windy. But the summer heat ruled over, which is (for a lack of a better word) unbearable. Therefore the ventilation is quite comforting.

Today, I’d like to thank my friend Greta for giving some trinkets from her Japan trip. One of the things she gave is a small piece of Matcha-flavored Kit-Kat, a favorite of mine. “Matcha-rap.” (A pun of masarap [delicious in Filipino].)

And today, I’d like to thank all the deities and the universe for giving me another chance to live. Yes, I may have done something stupid to myself a few months ago. But now I would like at least try to live every single day, one step at a time, just like Chris Cornell of Soundgarden said.

Of Nightmares and Ignorance

The line you have drawn
It applies from day ’til dawn
This uncertainty
and ignorance, I hate thee

All that’s in my dreams
recently is my whole team
and oh, you were there
but respond, you wouldn’t dare

I hate this nightmare
It makes me gasp for clean air
Oh, I hate this ignorance
Save me from this deadly trance

For the love of God
Please break my glass case with prod
Oh, please, let’s converse
Please just break this goddamned curse  Ω

Facing/Avoiding

The brain tells to avoid
and the universe reminds
patience almost destroyed
the nth time that I resigned

What if I take action
because we live only once
or prepare for extraction
so I’ll not look like a dunce

One more heavy deep breath
should I stay or should I go
doubt creeping like he’s Death
final decision is no

The brain tells to avoid
and the universe reminds
into the crowd I joined
the action I leave behind Ω