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10-Minute Warning CLXVI

All right. What can I write here under 10 minutes?

Or better yet, I should answer this: How am I today?

Physically, I feel weak. It must be because I woke up feeling tired, and I started eating less rice or carbohydrates in general. I realized that I had been eating more than usual, and I felt sad about how fat I looked. I also admit that I have been lazy about working out lately. I need to be careful about what I eat and I need to exercise more as well. I’m not getting any younger.

And mentally, my mind is still all over the place. I had a bit of work to do, so that kept me distracted for a while. Now I want to go out tonight and have my favorite affogato… or maybe a different drink, any drink that will make my heart and stomach happy. (No alcohol though. It’s not the weekend yet.)

Overall, I’m not fine, and I feel that I will be like this for the rest of the week. But I hope I will be wrong about that.

To everyone, have a nice week.

XX: Another Fight With Anxiety, Another Night of Reminiscing

Trigger warning: Anxiety. Please be advised.

30-Minute Warning XXXVII

OK. Now that I’m done with my 12-day blogging break, what can I share here under 30 minutes?

Well, yeah… let me talk about my short break from blogging. Writing on The Diary for 14 days straight (as part of my 14 Days of The Deranged Writer [2024] series) drained my energy, so I had to take a breather. And now I’m back, I will try to blog more often before 2024 ends.

Good grief. Here I go again with my monthly blog count problem. But hey, I still have to try to reach my goal. As my favorite Marvel character, Deadpool, says, “Maximum effort!”

Anyway, what is up with me recently? Well, after being on cloud nine because of my happiest birthday party by far (I’m working on a post about that), my mood went down a week after. Why? Let’s just say that I got ignored by a non-friend, and for some reason, it affected me so much. I still feel a bit awful about it, but my nerves are more relaxed now compared to last week. (My short break from blogging helped somehow.)

What else can I share? Oh! Recently, I have been doing my annual tradition: Attending the Simbang Gabi, a series of Holy Masses in preparation for Christmas. There are 9 Masses in total, and I have attended 6 so far. Also, I have been attending the anticipated Masses so I don’t have to wake up earlier at 1am or 2:30am. Good job, self! Here’s to going 9!

Wait. Now I realized something: My recent anxiety lessened because of Simbang Gabi and my nightly affogato time after that. Thank you, Lord.

And time’s up. Happy weekend and happy holidays!

Edited on December 21, 2024 at 2:10pm. I got anxious after reading the post twice, so I had to make one sentence clearer. (The “ignored” sentence.)