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Song of the Moment CXIV: Motörhead’s “I’ll Be Your Sister

Today, after trying to wake up earlier (and failing) and finishing a ton of paperwork, I’m honestly in low spirits and also anxious for a few reasons. As a fan of professional wrestling, I know there’s at least one reason to celebrate today, which is Austin 3:16 Day (in reference to the history-altering “Stone Cold” Steve Austin promo at WWE King of the Ring in 1996). Still, sometimes the melancholy and anxiety cannot be extinguished easily by a single happy memory.

That doesn’t mean I’m not doing my best to feel better, though. Here’s one of my happy methods this afternoon: listening to my favorite metal band, Motörhead, to burn off my anxious energy while working. In particular, I’ve been listening to their first two albums: the self-titled debut album and Overkill. The latter features one of my top three favorite songs from the speed metal pioneers, “I’ll Be Your Sister”.

XLIV: Messages I Never Conveyed

Trigger warning: Themes of depression and suicide. Please be advised.

XXXVI: The Nocturnal’s Struggle of Waking Up Early / Notes to Self XVI

If you have been following The Diary lately, you should know that I’ve been making gradual changes in my life. One of those changes is waking up early for work—ideally at 8:00am. I did just that on most workdays after ToyCon 2025, and there were times I even woke up at 6:00am. (That’s a feat for a nocturnal person like me, and even my family is shocked by the fact that I woke up before they did.)

Now it’s beyond the middle of August 2025, and I admit that I haven’t really been waking up as early as 8am lately… and that’s fine.

(Buckle up because this is going to be a long post.)