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XXVII: Just One Jack & Coke Zero

Since last weekend, it felt like a season finale and a season premiere. My heart feels like it has been healed like never before, and I want to make a few changes in my life slowly but surely.

One of those changes is this… moving forward, instead of drinking at least one Jack & Coke Zero on the rocks every Friday or Saturday night (depending on whether I have extra work), I will just drink one Jack & Coke Zero on the rocks every Friday or Saturday night. Just one.

For the past years, I have been drinking my favorite cocktail to numb myself and then wake up the next day feeling groggy. Tonight, I’m savoring every sip from that one glass to celebrate the small victories every weekend.

For example, what are this week’s small victories? Well, firstly, I finished most of my work on time. When I couldn’t finish a task, I told my bosses directly instead of keeping it to myself. I stopped myself from buying things impulsively. I made time to write more in my offline journal, but I also found a way to make the process more efficient. Also, for the first time in a long while, I blogged three times this week. (And this post is this week’s post number 3. Yes!)

And most importantly, I’m drinking because I’m still here. I’m still fighting. That’s a victory already.

Just one ice-cold glass of Jack & Coke Zero per week is all I need from now on.

Mark my f’n words,

The Deranged Writer

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Published on June 21, 2025 at 11:50pm. Minor edits were made at 11:54pm.

Song of the Moment LXXV: Zedd’s “Clarity” (feat. Foxes) (Again)

Hello, Diary. It’s been more than a week since my last post. Why? Because I honestly wanted a short break from blogging and just live. And after having another mental struggle, beating that struggle with my hobbies and spending quality time with my family, adjusting and preparing for a potential part-time job, and almost healing from a cold this weekend, I’m back to blogging here. (I just hope my cold is gone by tomorrow.)

Oh, and to cap off the weekend, I’m listening again to a previous Song of the Moment: Zedd and Foxes’ hit song “Clarity”. I don’t know why, but I just like listening to it on repeat tonight.

The music video of Zedd and Foxes’ “Clarity”.

See you tomorrow.

Published on March 23, 2025 at 10:40pm. Minor edits were made at 10:46pm.

10-Minute Warning CXI

All right. What can I share here in under 10 minutes?

I have been sick since yesterday. I have been coughing, I have an itchy throat, and I feel so weak. Thank goodness I don’t have that much work today, so I spent most of my day resting. I also drank Bioflu and an African Sea-Coconut cough mixture to heal more quickly… and it worked. As I type this, I feel much better now, though I still cough a bit. That means no cold drinks for me (still) – specifically, no Jack and Coke this Friday night. Oh, well. I hope to be 100% tomorrow or on Sunday.

After writing this post, I will watch one of my all-time favorite movies, the buddy cop action comedy Hot Fuzz. It is one of my comfort movies; I have seen it more than 5 times, and it has helped me get through my 1st noted bout with depression. Thank you, Prime Video, for having Hot Fuzz. You are the best.

Happy weekend, everyone!

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