Tonight is New Year’s Eve, and as I welcome 2026 with open arms and a worried yet excited heart in a few hours, I would like to close 2025 with a new Notes to Self that tackles about remembering… well, choosing what to remember.
Continue reading Notes to Self XXIIITag: happiness
From Afar
Getting your well-deserved promotion
Exploring the mysterious yet exciting world
I wish I could say I’m happy for you
But I can only be joyful for you from afar
The loss of someone important to you
A rejection that breaks your heart
I wish I could be there for you
But I can only be sad for you from afar
An intimate party with the ones you love
A massive show with you as the main star
I hope I can be glorious with you
But I can only say cheers to you from afar
All of these scenarios running in my mind
I’m uncertain if they happened or not
I only have these alternate trajectories
While I’m sure you’re enjoying life from afar
Then one day, the universe gave an answer
One alternate trajectory turned reality
One day, I walked and enjoyed the quiet
Then I saw you from afar
Your smile was beaming, beautiful as ever
Enjoying a meal with the ones you love
Our bond’s end shattered my world
But now I’m happy for you from afar
I have to live with the bittersweet truth:
My absence led to your happiness
So, even if it breaks my heart
I have to grow old with you from afar
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Smile I
Sunrays swaying with glee and pride
Miles away from the darkest of clouds
It’s times like these I should be in the present
Let the good times roll, savor the moment
Euphoria like this feels like heaven on earth
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Smile (Poetry Series): I, II
The final post for 14 Days of The Deranged Writer (2025).
Happiest birthday to me, The Deranged Writer!
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