dream – The Diary of The Deranged Writer

LI: Another Conversation Among Deranged Writers I / Notes to Self XXXI

Another Conversation Between Deranged Writers I: Of Bullies & Favorite Songs

On April 10, 2012, after gulping a can of his favorite Coca-Cola (fresh from the cool refrigerator) at home, The Deranged Writer, in his pambahay outfit, heard a familiar song: Tootsie Gueverra’s “Kaba.” When he heard the OPM hit, it reminded Dewey not of love, but of a hurtful period: third grade. That was the year he was still the butt of the bullies’ jokes, and he was incredibly annoyed by that one classmate who kept singing “Kaba” every morning.

Song of the Moment LXXI: Philip Glass’s “Metamorphosis: One” (Again)

Have you ever had a dream so happy that you wish the dream would never end? That’s the kind of dream that I had last Sunday, and I woke up feeling happy… and then my smile turned into a frown. It was only a dream.

“But Dewey, it was just a dream. Don’t worry about it.” That’s the thing: It was only a dream.

Since then, I have been struggling to bounce back. I had a hard time fixing my sleeping schedule. I had a hard time finishing my work tasks faster. I had a hard time basically being fine. If I were to add a piece of melancholic background music to my current predicament, it would be “Metamorphosis: One” by Philip Glass. It is one of my favorite sad songs ever.

Philip Glass’s “Metamorphosis One”.

And coincidentally, a year ago today, I also blogged about “Metamorphosis: One” as a Song of the Moment. I only found out after searching the old post. (If you click on the aforementioned link, there’s a spoiler warning if you have not seen “return 0”, the final episode of my all-time favorite series Person of Interest.)

Anyway, even if I’m sad, I will try to keep going. I have to.

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Published on February 19, 2025 at 11:07pm. Edits were made at 11:26pm.

Song of the Moment XXVII: Johnny Cash’s “Hurt” (A Nine Inch Nails Cover)

Yesterday I didn’t feel like writing, hence the lack of a blog post. I just wanted to work during the day and then have my walking/jogging session at night, and I did those things. I feel better after walking and jogging around my usual jogging path.

Today, I woke up earlier than usual to join my Mother in her meeting with a major client. After that, we had cheeseburgers for lunch at 8Cuts and went home. On our way home, I was groggy because I lacked sleep, so I took an afternoon nap.

And then I entered into a bad dream. Again. I can’t tell the details of my nightmare (what happened and who was in it), but all I can say right now is this: I have been fearful of the same nightmare for the past 5 years and counting, and it feels so real whenever I enter into it. I hate it so much. And to make it worse, I woke up with my nose bleeding like a faucet.

And then I remember Johnny Cash’s version of Nine Inch Nails’ “Hurt”. How appropriate.

What have I become
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
Johnny Cash’s “Hurt”

The music video of Johnny Cash’s “Hurt”, a Nine Inch Nails cover.

That is all.

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