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10-Minute Warning CLXVI

All right. What can I write here under 10 minutes?

Or better yet, I should answer this: How am I today?

Physically, I feel weak. It must be because I woke up feeling tired, and I started eating less rice or carbohydrates in general. I realized that I had been eating more than usual, and I felt sad about how fat I looked. I also admit that I have been lazy about working out lately. I need to be careful about what I eat and I need to exercise more as well. I’m not getting any younger.

And mentally, my mind is still all over the place. I had a bit of work to do, so that kept me distracted for a while. Now I want to go out tonight and have my favorite affogato… or maybe a different drink, any drink that will make my heart and stomach happy. (No alcohol though. It’s not the weekend yet.)

Overall, I’m not fine, and I feel that I will be like this for the rest of the week. But I hope I will be wrong about that.

To everyone, have a nice week.

XX: Another Fight With Anxiety, Another Night of Reminiscing

Trigger warning: Anxiety. Please be advised.

10-Minute Warning CLXV

All right. I’m supposed to write a longer post, but I opened my WordPress at 11:40pm. What can I share under 10 minutes?

Well, I really, really had a long day. I woke up earlier as I promised this week, but my sleep was not good, so I felt groggy. But I forced myself to do my morning rituals, fueled myself with extra-strong coffee, then ran today’s errands… and there were a lot of errands. My smartwatch is so happy that I got to walk 6,000 steps before lunchtime, and I honestly didn’t feel tired until I ran my last errand: having a watch fixed. I waited on the bench for several minutes, and I almost fell asleep. Looks like my extra-strong coffee is not strong enough.

With the caffeine out of my system already, I walked to the nearest Army Navy and ordered my favorite chicken burrito with extra orange cheese and a Coke Zero as my beverage. Once again, my heart and tummy are happy. (And this is why I’m fat.) After that, I enjoyed a slower walk around the area.

Crap. My 10 minutes is almost up. That’s it for now. Happy weekend, everyone.

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