tired – Page 3 – The Diary of The Deranged Writer

10-Minute Warning CLXVI

All right. What can I write here under 10 minutes?

Or better yet, I should answer this: How am I today?

Physically, I feel weak. It must be because I woke up feeling tired, and I started eating less rice or carbohydrates in general. I realized that I had been eating more than usual, and I felt sad about how fat I looked. I also admit that I have been lazy about working out lately. I need to be careful about what I eat and I need to exercise more as well. I’m not getting any younger.

And mentally, my mind is still all over the place. I had a bit of work to do, so that kept me distracted for a while. Now I want to go out tonight and have my favorite affogato… or maybe a different drink, any drink that will make my heart and stomach happy. (No alcohol though. It’s not the weekend yet.)

Overall, I’m not fine, and I feel that I will be like this for the rest of the week. But I hope I will be wrong about that.

To everyone, have a nice week.

Notes to Self XV

It’s almost a week after New Year’s Day, and my past several days have been memorable. But I don’t want to blog about all of them at once. Why? I just finished my first workout of 2025.

One of my resolutions this year is to keep exercising as much as I want to keep writing in my journal and here on The Diary. Today, I restarted my fitness journey by following Body Project’s 30-minute fat-burning beginner workout. And in the first few minutes, Mr. Daniel Bartlett (the coach in the video) reminded me that I could pick my place in the workout. I can pause, catch my breath, and keep marching in place if I can’t do the workout. But because I truly wanted to push myself, I followed how Mr. Bartlett works out exactly… and then my legs shook and I was breathing heavily. (And this is from following a low-impact workout. It has been so long since I had a proper workout other than walking and jogging.) I just had to pause, rest for a while, and gain the energy to exercise again.

And when I finally gained that energy back, I played the video again and Mr. Bartlett said something that hit a nail in my head. This is my 15th Notes to Self.

10-Minute Warning CXLI

So, what can I tell here under 10 minutes?

I’m not going to lie. I have felt physically and mentally tired for the past 2 weeks. That’s why I have not followed my blogging schedule again. That’s why it was a struggle for me to do my daily routine.

But what keeps me going are my recent “lamp posts”. The 1st lamp post: My Father bought ice cream for me last Monday afternoon. I don’t know why you did that, Father, but thank you. I appreciate it very much. And my 2nd lamp post: my weekly affogato at Oversight. Now my week is complete, and it’s only Tuesday. To my favorite cafe, thank you once again.

Another lamp post: the half-shell Deadpool mask that I ordered last August. I think I will get it by October or November, so I should wait and keep going. I’m so excited to wear it soon; I call it an early birthday gift to myself.

And time’s up.

Header image: Aron Yigin of Unsplash. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2024.