Song of the Moment CXIV: Motörhead’s “I’ll Be Your Sister

Today, after trying to wake up earlier (and failing) and finishing a ton of paperwork, I’m honestly in low spirits and also anxious for a few reasons. As a fan of professional wrestling, I know there’s at least one reason to celebrate today, which is Austin 3:16 Day (in reference to the history-altering “Stone Cold” Steve Austin promo at WWE King of the Ring in 1996). Still, sometimes the melancholy and anxiety cannot be extinguished easily by a single happy memory.

That doesn’t mean I’m not doing my best to feel better, though. Here’s one of my happy methods this afternoon: listening to my favorite metal band, Motörhead, to burn off my anxious energy while working. In particular, I’ve been listening to their first two albums: the self-titled debut album and Overkill. The latter features one of my top three favorite songs from the speed metal pioneers, “I’ll Be Your Sister”.

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Notes to Self XXVII

After having a streak of happy moments for several months, dark clouds have been hovering over my head more frequently. One of my contingency plans for dark days is to watch a random episode of my favorite show, so I opened my laptop and watched one of the show’s last episodes. During the viewing, a favorite character said something that’s somehow relevant to my situation.

This is my 27th Notes to Self.

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From Afar

Getting your well-deserved promotion
Exploring the mysterious yet exciting world
I wish I could say I’m happy for you
But I can only be joyful for you from afar

The loss of someone important to you
A rejection that breaks your heart
I wish I could be there for you
But I can only be sad for you from afar

An intimate party with the ones you love
A massive show with you as the main star
I hope I can be glorious with you
But I can only say cheers to you from afar

All of these scenarios running in my mind
I’m uncertain if they happened or not
I only have these alternate trajectories
While I’m sure you’re enjoying life from afar

Then one day, the universe gave an answer
One alternate trajectory turned reality
One day, I walked and enjoyed the quiet
Then I saw you from afar

Your smile was beaming, beautiful as ever
Enjoying a meal with the ones you love
Our bond’s end shattered my world
But now I’m happy for you from afar

I have to live with the bittersweet truth:
My absence led to your happiness
So, even if it breaks my heart
I have to grow old with you from afar

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