Tag: nerves

Song of the Moment CIV: Killswitch Engage’s “This Fire Burns” (Again)

In my current job, the busiest week of the month is the first week, so I expect this week (my birthday week) to be filled with paperwork. But my workload today is so overwhelming because it’s three days’ worth of tasks, and the report I’m working on needs to be submitted tomorrow. Good grief.

Thankfully, I powered through most of the tasks after lunch and into the afternoon. Now it’s nighttime, and I need a short break. I need to have chicken tinola for dinner to warm and comfort my soul, and to write how I feel here in The Diary to feel lighter. After this break, I will go to the mall, buy some office supplies, go home, and then finish the final set of tasks.

I usually listen to my mellow playlist at nighttime to relax my nerves and prepare for bed, but tonight, I don’t need calm. I need my manic playlist filled with fist-pumping rock/metal while I burn the midnight oil. But first, I’m queueing “This Fire Burns” by Killswitch Engage, the first WWE theme song of my current top favorite wrestler in WWE, “The Best in the World” CM Punk.

Killswitch Engage’s “This Fire Burns” (Also known as “This Fire”).

What a December 3, and it’s two days to go before my birthday. Anyway, I’m going back to work. It’s clobberin’ time.

See you in the next post.

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A part of 14 Days of The Deranged Writer (2025).

Header image: Francesco Paggiaro of Pexels. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2025.

30-Minute Warning XLII

Hello, Diary. What can I share here in under 30 minutes?

On the previous Minute Warning post, I wrote that many of my moments of 2025 have been happily memorable. After I wrote that post, I had more happy moments that happened in chilly Seoul. I had so many joyful moments there with my family… and there was a surreal yet happy point with someone. I have vaguely mentioned that on my previous Song of the Moment. Still, no Seoul trip details because I only have 30 minutes to write this post, Minute Warning posts don’t really have a proper flow, and, frankly speaking, I wanted to ramble on topics other than Seoul. For now.

Anyway, a few days after arriving home, there was a moment that led me to overthink with full force, and that spiked my anxiety levels. I wanted to elaborate on what was going on in my mind for people who were concerned for me… but I couldn’t. I had to deal with it alone. To solve this, I went to my safe space, sat in my favorite seat, drank some Earl Grey tea, and wrote more in my journal. Thankfully, that calmed me down, and I needed calm nerves for the next mission that would take place that weekend… a mission that would lead to happiness.

And then that calm turned into overexcitement, so I didn’t get proper sleep, and I ran on caffeine and adrenaline. But I completed my weekend mission, I accomplished everything on my checklist, and my heart and soul were on cloud nine after all that. (Though I admit that fragments of my heart and soul are still in Seoul because of someone.) Last weekend may be one of my happiest ones ever.

So, there… that’s why I have not been writing in The Diary lately: I was that happy recently. But don’t worry. The 2025 edition of 14 Days of The Deranged Writer will start this Saturday, November 22 (The Undertaker’s 35th anniversary, take note!), and I will blog for 14 days straight until December 5, my birthday. I’m pretty stoked about that!

And my 30 minutes are up. See you in the next post.

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Header image: Alexandro David of Pexels. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2025.

Updated November 19, 2025.

30-Minute Warning XXXVII

OK. Now that I’m done with my 12-day blogging break, what can I share here under 30 minutes?

Well, yeah… let me talk about my short break from blogging. Writing on The Diary for 14 days straight (as part of my 14 Days of The Deranged Writer [2024] series) drained my energy, so I had to take a breather. And now I’m back, I will try to blog more often before 2024 ends.

Good grief. Here I go again with my monthly blog count problem. But hey, I still have to try to reach my goal. As my favorite Marvel character, Deadpool, says, “Maximum effort!”

Anyway, what is up with me recently? Well, after being on cloud nine because of my happiest birthday party by far (I’m working on a post about that), my mood went down a week after. Why? Let’s just say that I got ignored by a non-friend, and for some reason, it affected me so much. I still feel a bit awful about it, but my nerves are more relaxed now compared to last week. (My short break from blogging helped somehow.)

What else can I share? Oh! Recently, I have been doing my annual tradition: Attending the Simbang Gabi, a series of Holy Masses in preparation for Christmas. There are 9 Masses in total, and I have attended 6 so far. Also, I have been attending the anticipated Masses so I don’t have to wake up earlier at 1am or 2:30am. Good job, self! Here’s to going 9!

Wait. Now I realized something: My recent anxiety lessened because of Simbang Gabi and my nightly affogato time after that. Thank you, Lord.

And time’s up. Happy weekend and happy holidays!

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Edited on December 21, 2024 at 2:10pm. I got anxious after reading the post twice, so I had to make one sentence clearer. (The “ignored” sentence.)