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XLI: The Return of Light in December 1

Since 2019, December 1 has become a haunting day. It reminded me of a ghost from a failed relationship, and I easily see ghosts through specific dates, photographs, and even songs. For a few years, I had to endure the pain of seeing those ghosts, especially on December 1.

In 2022, I took it upon myself to make December 1 a less sad day. Not happy; less sad. I kept myself busy. I greeted an uncle who is also a December 1 celebrant. I numbed myself with alcohol. I kept myself busy some more. And in doing all of those things, somehow they work, even if I still see that particular ghost.

But today, December 1, 2025, many happy moments have happened. At midnight, I was sharing laughs with an online friend (once again) about the most ridiculously unhinged professional wrestler of all time, “Big Poppa Pump” Scott Steiner. This morning, I woke up early, and I had some lovely FRESH POTS that energized my body and soul. I was able to accomplish the work tasks that I could do before I went running errands. After those errands, I had a fresh haircut and a satisfying massage. And now I’m having my thirst-quenching iced tea at my favorite cafe. I will absolutely have dinner here as well.

But the happiest part of the day? It’s talking to my new friend. It feels nice getting to know more about a gentle, kind soul.

It’s 6:00pm as I type this entry, but thanks to all those moments today, for the first time in years, I can declare that December 1 is a happy day. In fact, December 1, 2025, is the happiest December 1 of my life. Yes, the ghosts are still there, but they don’t haunt me anymore. The light I have been feeling lately outweighs the dark.

Four more days to go before my birthday, December 5!

A part of 14 Days of The Deranged Writer (2025).

Header image: Marta Dzedyshko of Pexels. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2025.

XIX: Second Week of February 2025 (So Far)

Hello. Sorry for the lack of updates again. So, for a change, I will avoid making another Minute Warning post, and I will try to sum up what happened so far from February 10, 2025 to today, February 16, 2025.

Song of the Moment LXVI: Spice Girls’ “Too Much”

Last Monday, I felt so unhappy and unmotivated that I skipped exercise time and my favorite cafe time. So last night, I went to the mall, had a fresh haircut, and ate my favorite BLT sandwich at my favorite cafe. I also made time to write in my journal and planner. All of those things made me feel better.

Today, I finished all of my work tasks, and I wrote again in my journal and planner earlier than usual. Then I was reminded of a 2025 resolution I still haven’t accomplished: finding a second job. Yes, it’s early to tell because it’s still January, and my current clerical job is stable. But I have to be honest: my current pay sucks and I need to keep up with the growing bills. I need another way to save more money. That means I need to find another job—a well-paying part-time job—and I need to do it more strenuously.

Anyway, after work and reminding myself about a resolution, I watched the iconic graphic novel-turned-film V for Vendetta, and now I’m writing this while listening to a hit by the Spice Girls, “Too Much”. It was my favorite song from the English girl group when I was young, and it’s still my favorite from them now—even if some of the lyrics remind me of a painful memory several years back.

Happy Wednesday, everyone.

Published on January 22, 2025 at 10:31pm. Edited at 10:38pm.