fat – The Diary of The Deranged Writer

XXXVI: The Nocturnal’s Struggle of Waking Up Early / Notes to Self XVI

If you have been following The Diary lately, you should know that I’ve been making gradual changes in my life. One of those changes is waking up early for work—ideally at 8:00am. I did just that on most workdays after ToyCon 2025, and there were times I even woke up at 6:00am. (That’s a feat for a nocturnal person like me, and even my family is shocked by the fact that I woke up before they did.)

Now it’s beyond the middle of August 2025, and I admit that I haven’t really been waking up as early as 8am lately… and that’s fine.

(Buckle up because this is going to be a long post.)

10-Minute Warning CLXVI

All right. What can I write here under 10 minutes?

Or better yet, I should answer this: How am I today?

Physically, I feel weak. It must be because I woke up feeling tired, and I started eating less rice or carbohydrates in general. I realized that I had been eating more than usual, and I felt sad about how fat I looked. I also admit that I have been lazy about working out lately. I need to be careful about what I eat and I need to exercise more as well. I’m not getting any younger.

And mentally, my mind is still all over the place. I had a bit of work to do, so that kept me distracted for a while. Now I want to go out tonight and have my favorite affogato… or maybe a different drink, any drink that will make my heart and stomach happy. (No alcohol though. It’s not the weekend yet.)

Overall, I’m not fine, and I feel that I will be like this for the rest of the week. But I hope I will be wrong about that.

To everyone, have a nice week.

10-Minute Warning LXV

OK. What can I share here in under 10 minutes?

In my current job, the 1st and 2nd weeks of the month are the most stressful. So today Mother told me to work on the billings already. I usually work on those billings for at least 3 days, but I finished them all today. What a productive day. All I have to do tomorrow is to print the billings and photocopy the service reports.

Yeah. I know, I know. My job sounds boring. But at least I’m earning money from it. Average salary, but still earning. And speaking of jobs, I’m (still) looking for a web/graphic design job whenever I don’t have any tasks.

What else? Well, I’m going back to doing aerobics tomorrow. Lately, honestly, I feel weaker and I get sad whenever I look in the mirror. Just walking and jogging are not enough. I need to burn more fat and lessen my sugar intake as well. Wish me luck!

And time’s up.