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Song of the Moment VIII: Matchbox Twenty’s “Unwell”

Today was an OK day for me. I went to the ENT to have my ears checked and cleaned. (I can hear better now; it’s like I have Daredevil’s heightened hearing now.) I went to pay my monthly bills. I had lunch and wrote in my journal at my favorite spot Satchmi. I checked the new Samsung Galaxy S24 Ultra at a Samsung store. I had some afternoon drinks with my Mother and cousins. Then we went home and I quickly worked on a document for next week.

But tonight, I started remembering that one thing that broke my heart, and now I’m mentally unwell. Let me quote that Matchbox Twenty classic.

But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know, right now you can’t tell
But stay a while and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me

I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know, right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Matchbox Twenty’s “Unwell”

The music video of Matchbox Twenty’s “Unwell”.

Now let me dwell in the darkness once again.

10-Minute Warning XXIX

So, what can I say here in under 10 minutes?

Today has been productive… and stressful. I was sorting and encoding so much data in Excel, and I ended up having a headache. I didn’t even finish all of the workload. I’m already going through a lot mentally, and now I feel like my brain is about to explode. Good grief.

I know I have a blogging streak to maintain, but fuck it. I need to rest now. I just hope the headache goes away tomorrow.

Header image: WolfBlur of Pixabay. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2022.

The Wall I

Trigger warning: This is a poem about depression and having suicidal thoughts. Please be advised.