The Wall I

Trigger Warning: depression and suicide. Please be advised.

First published on March 13, 2019.


It’s the perfect time to build a wall
then share my frustrations and all
for at least it will be no surprise
that it will ignore all my cries

It’s the perfect time to build a wall
and wait for the Reaper to call
Pitch black is where I will get comfort
There’ll be no more wasted effort

It’s the perfect time to build a wall
and wait for my body to fall
Deprive me this never-ending sigh
The world will be better when I die

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Header Image: Marina of Pexels. Edited on VSCO, Adobe Photoshop, and Adobe Illustrator.

II: The Day the World (Almost) Went Away

Trigger Warning: anxiety, depression, and suicide. Please be advised.


March 25, 2019

Background Music: Nine Inch Nails’ “The Day the World Went Away” (1999)

That very morning, I tried my best to get up from my bed, take a cold bath, and change my clothes. Even having breakfast has been a challenge, but I did it anyway.

I’d listen to the words he’d say
but in his voice I heard decay.

After doing all of that, I locked the door, took a seat in my bed, and stared blankly on the floor. I had enough of pretending.

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