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XXVII: Just One Jack & Coke Zero

Since last weekend, it felt like a season finale and a season premiere. My heart feels like it has been healed like never before, and I want to make a few changes in my life slowly but surely.

One of those changes is this… moving forward, instead of drinking at least one Jack & Coke Zero on the rocks every Friday or Saturday night (depending on whether I have extra work), I will just drink one Jack & Coke Zero on the rocks every Friday or Saturday night. Just one.

For the past years, I have been drinking my favorite cocktail to numb myself and then wake up the next day feeling groggy. Tonight, I’m savoring every sip from that one glass to celebrate the small victories every weekend.

For example, what are this week’s small victories? Well, firstly, I finished most of my work on time. When I couldn’t finish a task, I told my bosses directly instead of keeping it to myself. I stopped myself from buying things impulsively. I made time to write more in my offline journal, but I also found a way to make the process more efficient. Also, for the first time in a long while, I blogged three times this week. (And this post is this week’s post number 3. Yes!)

And most importantly, I’m drinking because I’m still here. I’m still fighting. That’s a victory already.

Just one ice-cold glass of Jack & Coke Zero per week is all I need from now on.

Mark my f’n words,

The Deranged Writer

Header image: Ron Lach of Pexels. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2025.

Published on June 21, 2025 at 11:50pm. Minor edits were made at 11:54pm.

Song of the Moment LXXV: Zedd’s “Clarity” (feat. Foxes) (Again)

Hello, Diary. It’s been more than a week since my last post. Why? Because I honestly wanted a short break from blogging and just live. And after having another mental struggle, beating that struggle with my hobbies and spending quality time with my family, adjusting and preparing for a potential part-time job, and almost healing from a cold this weekend, I’m back to blogging here. (I just hope my cold is gone by tomorrow.)

Oh, and to cap off the weekend, I’m listening again to a previous Song of the Moment: Zedd and Foxes’ hit song “Clarity”. I don’t know why, but I just like listening to it on repeat tonight.

The music video of Zedd and Foxes’ “Clarity”.

See you tomorrow.

Published on March 23, 2025 at 10:40pm. Minor edits were made at 10:46pm.

10-Minute Warning CLXVIII

Hello, Diary. Let me explain the lack of updates since Monday.

In my current job as an admin assistant, being busier during the first week of the month is pretty normal. But since this week started, I’m so swamped to the point that I don’t even have time to write here on The Diary or even offline. (Well, until now. I’m using my afternoon break to make time for blogging this quickly. And that’s it.) Yes, I also have time after work, but recently, I have been using that time to rest and take it easy. That is how busy I am lately.

I hope to find more blogging time this coming weekend… or perhaps tomorrow because I have a lot of things on my mind.