alcohol – The Diary of The Deranged Writer

XLI: The Return of Light in December 1

Since 2019, December 1 has become a haunting day. It reminded me of a ghost from a failed relationship, and I easily see ghosts through specific dates, photographs, and even songs. For a few years, I had to endure the pain of seeing those ghosts, especially on December 1.

In 2022, I took it upon myself to make December 1 a less sad day. Not happy; less sad. I kept myself busy. I greeted an uncle who is also a December 1 celebrant. I numbed myself with alcohol. I kept myself busy some more. And in doing all of those things, somehow they work, even if I still see that particular ghost.

But today, December 1, 2025, many happy moments have happened. At midnight, I was sharing laughs with an online friend (once again) about the most ridiculously unhinged professional wrestler of all time, “Big Poppa Pump” Scott Steiner. This morning, I woke up early, and I had some lovely FRESH POTS that energized my body and soul. I was able to accomplish the work tasks that I could do before I went running errands. After those errands, I had a fresh haircut and a satisfying massage. And now I’m having my thirst-quenching iced tea at my favorite cafe. I will absolutely have dinner here as well.

But the happiest part of the day? It’s talking to my new friend. It feels nice getting to know more about a gentle, kind soul.

It’s 6:00pm as I type this entry, but thanks to all those moments today, for the first time in years, I can declare that December 1 is a happy day. In fact, December 1, 2025, is the happiest December 1 of my life. Yes, the ghosts are still there, but they don’t haunt me anymore. The light I have been feeling lately outweighs the dark.

Four more days to go before my birthday, December 5!

A part of 14 Days of The Deranged Writer (2025).

Header image: Marta Dzedyshko of Pexels. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2025.

30-Minute Warning XXXVIII

Well, what can I write here under 30 minutes?

First of all, I’m feeling a bit better than yesterday. I had a little mix-up at work, but I fixed it right away and eventually completed all of my tasks. And while I was working, I listened to my Song of the Moment, My Chemical Romance’s “Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na)” and then their first album I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love. As I’m typing this, I’m listening to MCR’s legendary album Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge.

Secondly, what are my weekend plans? Not much. Yes, I will go to Mass on Sunday. Yes, I will write more at home tomorrow and Sunday. And no, I’m not going out tomorrow. I looked back at my spending since December 2024 (a lot of them were spent on online shopping), and good grief… my savings account is hurting now. I need to be careful with how I spend my money in the coming months, especially since a subscription fee doubled and I need said subscription for work. Oh, I really need a second job soon—a part-time graphic design job, at least. Please wish me luck in my job hunting.

Speaking of weekend plans… Normally, on a Friday night, I would prepare a can/glass of Jack and Coke/Coke Zero (my favorite alcoholic drink), open my laptop, and start writing on my blog. But tonight, I’m just writing with no Jack and Coke Zero on my table. No, I’m not forgetting my drink. I just want to shake things up a little. But now I should get my drink.

(Gets an ice-cold Jack and Coke Zero from the refrigerator.)

Oh, and since I need to spend less money in the coming months and to take care of my health, I will start drinking 1 can of Jack and Coke Zero only per weekend. Also, my family gave me a box of 12 Jack and Coke Zeros as one of my Christmas gifts, so I don’t have to worry about supplies of my favorite drink for at least 3 months. The first can from the box has been in the refrigerator for a week, and now I’m drinking it. To my family, thank you so much and I love you so much.

That’s all I can share for today. Cheers to the weekend!

10-Minute Warning CXXXVII

I feel so lazy updating my blog tonight, but I have to reach the 13-14 post goal before August ends. 1 more post tomorrow and I will reach 13. I need to push myself, man.

Anyway, what do I want to talk about in under 10 minutes? Well, I needed to wake up early and order an urgently needed part at work. After that and a little editing, my work was done, and then I ran a few errands with my cousins.

After running errands, I started my weekend by watching again a few episodes of Person of Interest. I’m currently on the 5th and final season, and I’m excited and sad about the end of binge-watching my favorite series of all time. That’s all right though because I can just re-watch it for the nth time or watch a different favorite series.

As I’m typing this, I just finished watching the kickoff show for WWE’s Bash in Berlin while drinking a refreshing Jack and Coke Zero. I can’t wait to see the next WWE PLE (Premium Live Event) tomorrow.

Happy weekend, everyone!