Family – Page 21 – The Diary of The Deranged Writer

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An update on my physical health today: After waking up at noon, I feel weak again and my head feels heavy. I pushed through Mass and dinner with my Mother, younger brothers and cousins, and I still feel sick. And now here I am, struggling to blog on mobile.

I will rest early and I hope to be fine tomorrow. If I do become fine tomorrow, I will blog twice so I can reach my monthly blog count. But if I don’t, oh well.

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All right. After 2 weeks of physical weakness and depression, I have gained the energy to finish work on time and now I want to walk and jog tonight. The energy may not be 100%, but it’s a start. I thank that cold brew this morning, my family, and my “lamp posts” for giving me the energy and hope today.

I learned a few years ago that whenever I’m in a depressive state, I should not rush to bounce back. I should rest and dwell in the darkness for a while. And then when I find my lamp posts and gain enough energy, that’s when I start to bounce back. And The Diary, I will let you know when I truly keep fighting.

That’s all I can share for today.

Written on September 26, 2024, 7:53pm. Published on September 27, 2024, 9:39pm. Minor edits were made at 11:25pm.

Header image: Marta Dzedyshko of Pexels. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2024.

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So, what can I tell here under 10 minutes?

I’m not going to lie. I have felt physically and mentally tired for the past 2 weeks. That’s why I have not followed my blogging schedule again. That’s why it was a struggle for me to do my daily routine.

But what keeps me going are my recent “lamp posts”. The 1st lamp post: My Father bought ice cream for me last Monday afternoon. I don’t know why you did that, Father, but thank you. I appreciate it very much. And my 2nd lamp post: my weekly affogato at Oversight. Now my week is complete, and it’s only Tuesday. To my favorite cafe, thank you once again.

Another lamp post: the half-shell Deadpool mask that I ordered last August. I think I will get it by October or November, so I should wait and keep going. I’m so excited to wear it soon; I call it an early birthday gift to myself.

And time’s up.

Header image: Aron Yigin of Unsplash. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2024.