problem – The Diary of The Deranged Writer

Notes to Self XXV

Last night, I was in a reflective mood while I was scrolling through my drafts. Then I found something worth filing under the Notes to Self category. It was a quote I would always bring up on my social media accounts and one of my old main blogs (which preceded The Diary), but I never really explained it personally. Since I’m still in a reflective mood tonight, I figured I should bring it up one more time and finally expound on it.

The quote? It’s a line CM Punk (who was slowly growing out of The Nexus and had entered his Best in the World era) said to Mr. McMahon during a contract negotiation on an episode of WWE Raw in 2011.

10-Minute Warning CXCIV

What I truly dislike is when people tell me not to cry.

I’m quite aware that not every problem can be fixed, and everyone makes mistakes. But whether that problem can be fixed, or I end up crying over spilled milk, I should be allowed to shed tears. I learned a long time ago that I can’t just bottle up my sorrow and anger, and I need to express myself (not in a destructive way, of course) to feel catharsis, to feel better. To certain people, why am I not allowed to cry?

If I’m not allowed to cry in a place that I thought to be safe, fuck that shit. Maybe I should look for a safer space elsewhere. And if I can’t find another safe space, it’s a good thing I have The Diary.

One more day before my birthday.

A part of 14 Days of The Deranged Writer (2025).

Header image: Hans of Pixabay. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2025.

30-Minute Warning XXXV

So, what can I tell here under 30 minutes?

Well, my 14 Days of The Deranged Writer (2024 edition) has been going well so far; I have already blogged for 2 days straight, and have 12 more posts to go. I think that achievement deserves a toast. Good job, Dewey!

Moving on, I was about to write another lengthy post today, but my laptop’s battery was fluctuating again. The battery percentage went from 100% to 80% to 90% like crazy, and I figured I should turn off my laptop and wait for a few minutes before I restart it. I did that, and now my laptop’s battery is stuck at 0% even if there’s a charger plugged in. I’m totally worried.

With that, I have decided that for my 3rd entry of 14 Days of The Deranged Writer (2024), I will write this 30-Minute Warning post. I know that I should let my laptop rest for now, but I don’t have time to blog this afternoon. I need to write for 30 minutes and quickly design the post’s header image, so I will need to push my laptop a bit. Sorry, laptop. I will let you rest the rest of the day, I promise.

Anyway, I don’t think I blogged about this, but I ordered a few things as birthday gifts for myself. Firstly, I ordered a Deadpool from the Deadpool & Wolverine Funko Pop line (the one holding swords) from a local supplier, and I got the figure on the same day. Awesome. For a while, I thought I would never have one of my dream Deadpool Pops. This makes me happy.

And secondly, I ordered something from Amazon last November 16: Moleskine’s Classic 2025 Daily Diary/Planner (hardcover, large) and 3 Cahier Journals (pocket-sized, set of 3). I’m supposed to get them on Monday, but surprisingly I got them yesterday afternoon. For me, that’s fast! This makes me happy too because I want to be prepared for the upcoming year as early as this November or December. I want to jot down several important events and a few tasks (especially birthdays of loved ones) on my planner before 2025 starts.

Wait. If I already have a large daily diary/planner, what are the pocket journals for? They are my backup diary/planners whenever I don’t have my large planner in my bag.

Crap. My 30 minutes is up. I will talk about my Moleskine purchase soon, probably as part of 14 Days of The Deranged Writer (2024). But for now, I’m resting for the rest of the day and spending time with my family. See you tomorrow!

Published on November 24, 2024 at 1:58am. Minor edits were made at 2:03am and 2:26am to make a few details clearer.