mental illness – The Diary of The Deranged Writer

Notes to Self XXIX & XXX

Since yesterday, I have had a big ball of fuming frustration in my chest, and tonight I need to let it out. This is a double-feature Notes to Self.

Trigger warning: Themes of mental illness and anxiety. Please be advised.

10-Minute Warning CLXIX

So, what can I write here under 10 minutes?

I have a few posts lined up, but after a certain discouraging conversation about my mental health from yesterday (while I was trying a different version of my favorite affogato, mind you), I don’t feel like posting them for now. In fact, today, I feel too sad to write, exercise, or even work. (But I had to finish the latter because obviously it’s work.)

Will I be better or at least get over it by this weekend? I really don’t know. Good luck to me, perhaps.

Published on March 12, 2025 at 10:54pm. Minor edits were made at 10:57pm.

10-Minute Warning CVI

I know I said I would publish a birthday post for my no. 1 hero, Dave Grohl of Foo Fighters, today. But I’m not proud after reading what I wrote for the nth time. And also, I’m mentally unwell once again. I think my recent bout with mental illness may have started when I skipped my meds on New Year’s Eve. (Since 2019, I never skipped my meds. Oops.)

I’m sorry. I hope I will be better on Friday, though I’m not sure if I will publish my letter to Mr. Grohl on that day. Again, I’m sorry.

Header image: Quintin Gellar of Pexels. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2023.