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XX: Another Fight With Anxiety, Another Night of Reminiscing

Trigger warning: Anxiety. Please be advised.

10-Minute Warning CLXV

All right. I’m supposed to write a longer post, but I opened my WordPress at 11:40pm. What can I share under 10 minutes?

Well, I really, really had a long day. I woke up earlier as I promised this week, but my sleep was not good, so I felt groggy. But I forced myself to do my morning rituals, fueled myself with extra-strong coffee, then ran today’s errands… and there were a lot of errands. My smartwatch is so happy that I got to walk 6,000 steps before lunchtime, and I honestly didn’t feel tired until I ran my last errand: having a watch fixed. I waited on the bench for several minutes, and I almost fell asleep. Looks like my extra-strong coffee is not strong enough.

With the caffeine out of my system already, I walked to the nearest Army Navy and ordered my favorite chicken burrito with extra orange cheese and a Coke Zero as my beverage. Once again, my heart and tummy are happy. (And this is why I’m fat.) After that, I enjoyed a slower walk around the area.

Crap. My 10 minutes is almost up. That’s it for now. Happy weekend, everyone.

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Song of the Moment LXXI: Philip Glass’s “Metamorphosis: One” (Again)

Have you ever had a dream so happy that you wish the dream would never end? That’s the kind of dream that I had last Sunday, and I woke up feeling happy… and then my smile turned into a frown. It was only a dream.

“But Dewey, it was just a dream. Don’t worry about it.” That’s the thing: It was only a dream.

Since then, I have been struggling to bounce back. I had a hard time fixing my sleeping schedule. I had a hard time finishing my work tasks faster. I had a hard time basically being fine. If I were to add a piece of melancholic background music to my current predicament, it would be “Metamorphosis: One” by Philip Glass. It is one of my favorite sad songs ever.

Philip Glass’s “Metamorphosis One”.

And coincidentally, a year ago today, I also blogged about “Metamorphosis: One” as a Song of the Moment. I only found out after searching the old post. (If you click on the aforementioned link, there’s a spoiler warning if you have not seen “return 0”, the final episode of my all-time favorite series Person of Interest.)

Anyway, even if I’m sad, I will try to keep going. I have to.

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Published on February 19, 2025 at 11:07pm. Edits were made at 11:26pm.