Author: The Deranged Writer

Yes, he wears a mask sometimes. And according to most people, he looks like Bruno Mars when he is unmasked. Absolutely deranged, below-average writer.

10-Minute Warning CXLII

All right. After 2 weeks of physical weakness and depression, I have gained the energy to finish work on time and now I want to walk and jog tonight. The energy may not be 100%, but it’s a start. I thank that cold brew this morning, my family, and my “lamp posts” for giving me the energy and hope today.

I learned a few years ago that whenever I’m in a depressive state, I should not rush to bounce back. I should rest and dwell in the darkness for a while. And then when I find my lamp posts and gain enough energy, that’s when I start to bounce back. And The Diary, I will let you know when I truly keep fighting.

That’s all I can share for today.

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Written on September 26, 2024, 7:53pm. Published on September 27, 2024, 9:39pm. Minor edits were made at 11:25pm.

Header image: Marta Dzedyshko of Pexels. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2024.

Song of the Moment XLVIII: Linkin Park’s “The Messenger” (Again)

Once again, Linkin Park’s “The Messenger” is my Song of the Moment. Why? It soothes my heart which has been aching for weeks, and I will need to listen to it more in the coming days.

When you’ve suffered enough and your spirit is breaking
You’re growing desperate from the fight
Remember you’re loved and you always will be
This melody will bring you right back homewa

Linkin Park’s “The Messenger”
Chester Bennington performs “The Messenger”. Credit: Hayleigh Thompson.

To my loved ones, I’m holding on. I’m really trying to hold on.

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10-Minute Warning CXLI

So, what can I tell here under 10 minutes?

I’m not going to lie. I have felt physically and mentally tired for the past 2 weeks. That’s why I have not followed my blogging schedule again. That’s why it was a struggle for me to do my daily routine.

But what keeps me going are my recent “lamp posts”. The 1st lamp post: My Father bought ice cream for me last Monday afternoon. I don’t know why you did that, Father, but thank you. I appreciate it very much. And my 2nd lamp post: my weekly affogato at Satchmi. Now my week is complete, and it’s only Tuesday. To my favorite cafe, thank you once again.

Another lamp post: the half-shell Deadpool mask that I ordered last August. I think I will get it by October or November, so I should wait and keep going. I’m so excited to wear it soon; I call it an early birthday gift to myself.

And time’s up.

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Header image: Aron Yigin of Unsplash. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2024.