job hunt – Page 2 – The Diary of The Deranged Writer

Notes to Self VIII

Recently, whenever my parents/bosses didn’t have a task for me, I did a few job interviews. And not one employer gave a job offer; not even an entry-level one. I thought all the rejections I have taken since the COVID-19 pandemic had toughened me up, but it still breaks my heart whenever a potential employer doesn’t take a chance on me. I truly feel like giving up on hunting for a web/graphic design job and just focusing on the clerical work that I have now.

Then recently, while I was binge-watching the American crime mystery/dramedy series Castle, I heard a quote from Richard Castle (played by Nathan Fillion) for his daughter Alexis (played by Molly Quinn) that hit my heart.

And that, my friends, is my 8th Note to Self.

10-Minute Warning XXXV

Let me warn you again that I will mention something about poop.

Is my stomach still hurting? No.

Do I still have violent diarrhea? No.

Do I still feel physically drained? Yes.

Did I get the job after the last interview? No.

I’m thankful that other than still feeling drained (that can be cured with healthy eating and sleeping well), physically I’m OK. But mentally and emotionally, I’m not. Sure, I don’t like the idea of working on a graveyard shift. But it would have been nice to have the option to. And I really thought I will get the job.

Oh well. Onto the next job search. Please wish me luck.

10-Minute Warning XXXIII

I feel so tired right now. But I don’t want to ruin my blogging streak, so here I am.

I slept early last night, but when I woke up this morning, I feel groggy. It’s like I needed 2-3 more hours of sleep. But I needed to be energized because I had a job interview at 9:00 am, so I had a healthy breakfast and 1 strong cup of coffee.

And what happened during the job interview? I talked to the company’s HR staff and creative director, and I feel a bit intimidated. At one point, my throat dried out of worry. (I think the coffee made me feel awake and worry at the same time.) But they were assuring and they told me to relax.

Overall, the interview went well… I think? And they confirmed that the job will be on night shift. Damn. That’s not what I want. But we’ll see if I change my mind. I miss designing websites and I would like to earn more as well.

I would like to tell more about what happened in the afternoon and tonight, but my stomach is aching a bit. Damn it.