anxious – Page 2 – The Diary of The Deranged Writer

10-Minute Warning LXXIII

Today I’m supposed to write my 10th Notes to Self, but I need to get something off my chest.

Tonight, I almost got hit by a car because I felt dizzy and a bit breathless while I was walking in the pedestrian lane. I felt ashamed and more anxious because of the almost-accident, so I went straight to my safe space Satchmi, relaxed my nerves, and had my dinner there. It took an hour, 1 BLT, and an iced tea before I started feeling somehow better.

Before closing, I asked one of the cafe’s baristas if I could reserve the cafe for my birthday. He told me that I could reserve the cafe as long as the event falls on a weekday, and I said my birthday falls on December 5, Tuesday. Cool. Now my favorite cafe is a possible birthday venue. I went home after inquiring, feeling much better.

What else? Hmmm. That’s it. That’s about it.

30-Minute Warning X

Warning: A bit of an unhygienic theme ahead.

10-Minute Warning XXXII

Today was very productive at work. I finished 4 billings before lunch time and did a few things an HR staff would do. Good job, self!

In the afternoon, someone reached out to me on LinkedIn. She was asking if I’m looking for a job opportunity as a web/graphic designer, and I said yes. I sent my resume and we agreed on a time for my job interview (which is tomorrow). This is my 1st job interview this 2023, and I’m nervous yet excited. Wish me luck!

Tonight, the entire family and I went to this lovely Italian restaurant to celebrate Father’s Day. I was not able to book a reservation before the actual Father’s Day (which was yesterday), so we settled for tonight. And how was the food? The pizza, pasta and steak were good! I think my favorite would be the Burrata & Culatello? (I hope I got that right.) And if I didn’t get anxious and I didn’t overthink in the middle of our dinner, I would have enjoyed the food more. Damn it, brain.

Anyway, belated happy dad’s day to all the fathers and father figures out there – most especially to my Father, who is the most hardest-working and strongest-willed person I have ever known. I love you, my dad… more than you know.