anxiety – The Diary of The Deranged Writer

Notes to Self XXIX & XXX

Since yesterday, I have had a big ball of fuming frustration in my chest, and tonight I need to let it out. This is a double-feature Notes to Self.

Trigger warning: Themes of mental illness and anxiety. Please be advised.

XLVIII: Exchanging Digital Letters

Instant messaging has to be one of the greatest modern inventions known to man. Despite the distance, one can now easily message someone with a few clicks, and the recipient can reply in minutes or even seconds. I send “How are you?” to someone, and I get “I’m good! How are you?” right after, and we can take it from there.

Song of the Moment CXIV: Motörhead’s “I’ll Be Your Sister

Today, after trying to wake up earlier (and failing) and finishing a ton of paperwork, I’m honestly in low spirits and also anxious for a few reasons. As a fan of professional wrestling, I know there’s at least one reason to celebrate today, which is Austin 3:16 Day (in reference to the history-altering “Stone Cold” Steve Austin promo at WWE King of the Ring in 1996). Still, sometimes the melancholy and anxiety cannot be extinguished easily by a single happy memory.

That doesn’t mean I’m not doing my best to feel better, though. Here’s one of my happy methods this afternoon: listening to my favorite metal band, Motörhead, to burn off my anxious energy while working. In particular, I’ve been listening to their first two albums: the self-titled debut album and Overkill. The latter features one of my top three favorite songs from the speed metal pioneers, “I’ll Be Your Sister”.