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Song of the Moment LXXI: Philip Glass’s “Metamorphosis: One” (Again)

Have you ever had a dream so happy that you wish the dream would never end? That’s the kind of dream that I had last Sunday, and I woke up feeling happy… and then my smile turned into a frown. It was only a dream.

“But Dewey, it was just a dream. Don’t worry about it.” That’s the thing: It was only a dream.

Since then, I have been struggling to bounce back. I had a hard time fixing my sleeping schedule. I had a hard time finishing my work tasks faster. I had a hard time basically being fine. If I were to add a piece of melancholic background music to my current predicament, it would be “Metamorphosis: One” by Philip Glass. It is one of my favorite sad songs ever.

Philip Glass’s “Metamorphosis One”.

And coincidentally, a year ago today, I also blogged about “Metamorphosis: One” as a Song of the Moment. I only found out after searching the old post. (If you click on the aforementioned link, there’s a spoiler warning if you have not seen “return 0”, the final episode of my all-time favorite series Person of Interest.)

Anyway, even if I’m sad, I will try to keep going. I have to.

Header image: Danila Perevoshchikov of Pexels. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2025.

Published on February 19, 2025 at 11:07pm. Edits were made at 11:26pm.

Song of the Moment XXVII: Johnny Cash’s “Hurt” (A Nine Inch Nails Cover)

Yesterday I didn’t feel like writing, hence the lack of a blog post. I just wanted to work during the day and then have my walking/jogging session at night, and I did those things. I feel better after walking and jogging around my usual jogging path.

Today, I woke up earlier than usual to join my Mother in her meeting with a major client. After that, we had cheeseburgers for lunch at 8Cuts and went home. On our way home, I was groggy because I lacked sleep, so I took an afternoon nap.

And then I entered into a bad dream. Again. I can’t tell the details of my nightmare (what happened and who was in it), but all I can say right now is this: I have been fearful of the same nightmare for the past 5 years and counting, and it feels so real whenever I enter into it. I hate it so much. And to make it worse, I woke up with my nose bleeding like a faucet.

And then I remember Johnny Cash’s version of Nine Inch Nails’ “Hurt”. How appropriate.

What have I become
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
Johnny Cash’s “Hurt”

The music video of Johnny Cash’s “Hurt”, a Nine Inch Nails cover.

That is all.

Header image: CDD20 of Pixabay. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2024.

X: From 2023 to 2024 (A Year-End Post) I

At exactly 12am on December 2023, I started writing my year-end post while finishing my 2nd Jack and Coke. I made an outline of all the good and bad things that happened in my year 2023, and then I started fleshing out what I outlined.

While I was writing the almost middle of the post, I yawned. I said to myself, “Crap. I feel tired. I’m supposed to finish this post.” But then I decided not to fight the sleepiness, so I hopped on the couch and napped.

5 minutes later, I woke up, and my laptop was off. I didn’t turn off my laptop.

And then I heard a voice. “Hi, Dewey.”

I looked up and I saw myself – a version of myself, that is. He is The Deranged Writer of 2008.