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10-Minute Warning XCIX

In my previous post, I said I will make time to make a year-end post today. But honestly I’m still depressed, uninspired and I spent most of the day sleeping. I hate this because I don’t want to end on a sad note.

Tomorrow, the 1st thing I will do is make the year-end post that I promised, and tomorrow starts in an hour. I slept too much anyway, so why not start the end of 2023 by being productive?

IX: Fighting the Christmas Blues (Year XXXIII)

As I said in a previous post: Whenever I feel depressed, it’s either (1) I dwell in the darkness or (2) distract myself to feel better.

Today, on Christmas Day, I chose option 2.

10-Minute Warning LXXXVI

So, what can I share under 10 minutes?

As I said in the previous post, I’m depressed and I’m feeling the birthday blues. Whenever I’m depressed, it’s either (1) I dwell in the darkness or (2) I distract myself so I can feel at least a bit better. Today, I did option number 2.

So, what did I do today to distract myself? I took a longer, colder bath to be more awake without drinking caffeine. I had a healthy plate of pineapple chicken for brunch. I went to church with my Mother and cousin Risa. After hearing Mass, I dropped by Paskomiket and bought a Dave Ghorl sticker (not a typo) from one of my favorite Filipino comic book artists Mr. Toto Madayag (creator of Libreng Komiks). I also had a small but fun conversation with Mr. Madayag. After that, I had some snacks at Pound with my Mother, cousin Risa, Uncle Don, Aunt Grace, and their daughter Sofi. And finally, Elder Brother bought me and Risa some Oreo cheesecake milk tea.

Now that today is ending as I’m typing this, how am I now? Thanks to my church time, the Dave Ghorl sticker, my chat with Mr. Madayag, our small family snack time, and Elder Brother’s milk tea treat, I feel a bit better. It’s not the “much better” feeling I should be having before my birthday, but at least I’m getting there.

And oh! One of my friends whom I invited to my birthday party just replied. She’s available on my birthday. I’m so happy! Yes!