depression – Page 10 – The Diary of The Deranged Writer

10-Minute Warning XXVII

Let me cut to the chase. As I’m typing this now on mobile, I feel really sad. I don’t want to do anything rash or hurt myself. I’m simply sad.

I did everything to feel less sad today. I woke up early this morning. I ate breakfast and lunch on time. I helped in cleaning and taking out the trash. I updated my journal earlier than usual. I listened to the Foo Fighters’ new album But Here We Are for the nth time. And then I had my nightly walking/jogging at Three Trees. And after all that, the sadness is still there. It was lessened, but it is still there.

Perhaps I need to try harder to lessen the sorrow… or maybe stay in the darkness for a while until I’m ready to bounce back? We’ll see. I just hope I will become well tomorrow or any time this week. I truly hope.

Header image: Dustin Tramel of Unsplash. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2022.

The Wall II

Now’s the perfect time to break the wall
And let out the loudest bawl
For I am finally reinvigorated
And depression is obliterated

Now’s the perfect time to break the wall
And get ready for the next brawl
All of my demons should run
My road to redemption has begun

Now’s the perfect time to break the wall
And tell Death to recall
This is not the end of my story
I will run through life with fury

The Wall (Poetry Series): I, II, III

Header image: Mick Haupt of Unsplash. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2022.

The Wall I

Trigger warning: This is a poem about depression and having suicidal thoughts. Please be advised.