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Song of the Moment LVIII: Linkin Park’s “In the End”

This post is a part of 14 Days of The Deranged Writer (2024).

3 days left before December 5, my birthday, and I’m back to having the birthday blues with a mix of frustration. Why? Normally I explain the cause of melancholy and frustration here on The Diary, but tonight I don’t feel like explaining at all. All I can tell is that I’m sad and frustrated and I think I will bring those feelings to my birthday itself. This is hopeless.

Speaking of hopeless, let me share my Song of the Moment: the perfect Linkin Park song about hopelessness and the band’s signature song, “In the End”.

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter
Linkin Park’s “In the End”

3 days left before my birthday, and I feel like this…

The music video of Linkin Park’s “In the End”

See you tomorrow.

Edits were made on December 2, 2024 at 10:23pm.

30-Minute Warning XXXVI

So, what can I share here in under 30 minutes?

In the 10th entry of 14 Days of The Deranged Writer (2024), I would like to share how I feel: I feel better now. Why? Because yesterday, I finally found time to purely focus on organizing my birthday dinner this December 5. I already reached out to three of my choices for the venue (on Viber), and I will check out two of those venues today. I need to settle for a venue today and I can’t delay that any further.

Before the venue selection, I asked my family and a few friends if they were available on December 5, and even if there was no venue yet, all of them confirmed their attendance. I’m so happy to know that 12 loved ones – my parents, brothers, 2 cousins, and a few friends – are going, and that is why I need to settle for a venue today and then finally tell my beloved where I will celebrate my birthday. I don’t want to confirm the venue at the last minute. And that is why I’m writing this Minute Warning post at 2am.

In other news: There is this biker jacket that I have been eyeing like a vulture for years online, and even if it’s on sale because it’s Black Friday weekend, it is still ultra-pricier compared to my Bullet Club 10th anniversary jacket. But that’s the thing – it’s on sale. Should I get it before my birthday? Maybe I should as a gift to myself…

Inner Dewey: Don’t do that, you, idiot. You already bought a Deadpool Funko Pop, a Moleskine 2025 planner, a few more Moleskine pocket journals, and you have a birthday dinner coming up. You have enough birthday gifts already. Just don’t.

Me: OK, fine. I will not…

Inner Dewey: Good.

Me: …for now.

Inner Dewey: Come on, man. Even if it’s your birthday and it’s the holidays…

And time’s up.

Header image: Kacumen of Pixabay. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2024.

Notes to Self XIV

Hi! I’m The Deranged Writer and welcome to another episode of Notes to Self! In this blog series, I quote something worth remembering from any media or someone I know.

And in this 14th episode of Notes to Self (and the 9th entry of 14 Days of The Deranged Writer [2024]), I’m quoting once again my favorite superhero, Batman – in particular, Robert Pattinson’s version from the movie The Batman.

Spoiler warning if you have not seen The Batman (2022).