Category: Family

10-Minute Warning XXVIII

I have been feeling shitty for a week already. Thank you, my Dispatch and my journal, for making me remember to count the days. And today, that shitty feeling became worse because of something I did.

I can’t tell the long story, the specifics. All I can say is that I did something that is not really a big deal, but then I looked back at what I did and thought, “I think I fucked up.” I don’t know if (option A) my anxiety is just messing with me or (option B) if I truly fucked up. If I were to pick the lesser evil, I hope for option A.

I haven’t told my family about my current mental predicament. I may have told 2 friends about it. I think I should open up to my family soon – first, my brothers, and then my parents. I think they deserve to know.

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10-Minute Warning XXVI

I usually start a Minute Warning post with a question: What can I share here in under 10 minutes? Today I’m pretty sure I will write something in less than 10 minutes.

Since last night, I have been staying in the family condominium and I… feel down more than usual? I think the sadness started when I got exhausted after last night’s gig (the younger brothers organized it with a major record label) and I didn’t eat dinner on time. And I think the sadness became worse when I overslept. I mean, I slept 3:30am and I woke up at 2:30pm. An 11-hour sleep… damn.

After waking up so late, I decided to take a long, cold bath, put on my flannel shirt, black slacks and black kicks and go to my favorite cafe and safe space Satchmi. I had a Satchmi BLT and a house blend ice tea while I’m writing on my journal.

After writing, I finally took time to listen to the newly-released Foo Fighters album But Here We Area. And what can I say about the new Foos record? Well, simply put, it’s their most painful album yet. Yes, I know I’m already feeling way down and I shouldn’t listen to music that can possibly amplify the sadness. But thanks to the new Foos album, I was able to process the sadness without making it worse, and the pain becomes somehow bearable. That is one of things I love about the Foos – their music heals my broken heart, mind and soul. Thank you, Foo Fighters, for saving me once again.

And I almost forgot: I’m blogging on mobile once again. I forgot to bring my laptop to the condo.

And time’s up.

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10-Minute Warning XXV

So, what happened to me today?

Since I don’t have paperwork to do today, I had time to get a fresh haircut and my weekly affogato at my favorite cafe Satchmi. And before sunset, I dropped by the condominium. Mother, Father, Cristy (my cousin), and Younger Brother are at the condo as well.

Elder Brother is out of town for work, so Mother and Cristy took the time to clean the condo and my brothers’ pet dogs and Father took a nap on Elder’s bed. And before Mother, Father, and Cristy went to the condo, Younger Brother was guarding there alone and working as well.

Speaking of my brother’s pet dogs, it was really nice to see them again. Manuelito and Ariana are so adorable and fluffy. Awww.

At 7pm, I went up the roof deck and took photos of the Makati/Mandaluyong skyline – or at least I tried. The winds are so furious that I had to double my phone grip strength while taking photos. I really thought I would drop my phone, but thankfully I didn’t.

What else? Well, I left out a few more details, but that is pretty much what happened in my life today.

And time’s up.

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