XXVIII: A Diary Post at Noon!

I cannot believe this. I’m actually blogging at noon!

Now let’s start with what happened this morning…

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XXVII: Just One Jack & Coke Zero

Since last weekend, it felt like a season finale and a season premiere. My heart feels like it has been healed like never before, and I want to make a few changes in my life slowly but surely.

One of those changes is this… moving forward, instead of drinking at least one Jack & Coke Zero on the rocks every Friday or Saturday night (depending on whether I have extra work), I will just drink one Jack & Coke Zero on the rocks every Friday or Saturday night. Just one.

For the past years, I have been drinking my favorite cocktail to numb myself and then wake up the next day feeling groggy. Tonight, I’m savoring every sip from that one glass to celebrate the small victories every weekend.

For example, what are this week’s small victories? Well, firstly, I finished most of my work on time. When I couldn’t finish a task, I told my bosses directly instead of keeping it to myself. I stopped myself from buying things impulsively. I made time to write more in my offline journal, but I also found a way to make the process more efficient. Also, for the first time in a long while, I blogged three times this week. (And this post is this week’s post number 3. Yes!)

And most importantly, I’m drinking because I’m still here. I’m still fighting. That’s a victory already.

Just one ice-cold glass of Jack & Coke Zero per week is all I need from now on.

Mark my f’n words,

The Deranged Writer

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Header image: Ron Lach of Pexels. Edited in Adobe Photoshop 2025.

Published on June 21, 2025 at 11:50pm. Minor edits were made at 11:54pm.

Song of the Moment LXXXVI: Joey McIntyre’s “Stay the Same”

Tonight, while I was drinking my favorite Jack & Coke Zero and listening to my favorite songs on Spotify in peace, I remembered a few people again—one of them is a significant person in my high school phase, Lyra. And strangely enough, Spotify played Joey McIntyre’s “Stay the Same”, the same song Lyra dedicated to me at one point in our fourth year in high school.

The music video of Joey McIntyre’s “Stay the Same”.

What’s up with that, Spotify and the universe? But anyway, thank you for that. I’m going to cry now.

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