Trigger warning: Anxiety. Please be advised.
Earlier today I published a new 10-Minute Warning post about my recent anxiety attacks, but when I read it again, I had to unpublish it because I mixed a lot of details in order. Writing about what happened in 10 minutes is a mistake. Sorry about that.
Now, I will need more than 10 minutes to explain everything properly.
Monday, August 26
Last Monday night, I went out to the mall and ran errands. Firstly, I went to buy 3 salad bowls at SaladStop. I don’t want to wait for the bowls though and I want to do the next thing on my list right away, so I asked the lady at the counter that I will get the bowls later. And what’s next on my list? Buy milk at the grocery.
While I was in line at the grocery counter, many thoughts raced through my mind. All the overthinking led to shortness of breath – a definite sign of an anxiety attack. I had to leave the milk behind and went to my favorite spot Satchmi to have a cool drink and relax. My anxiety disappeared after my time at my favorite cafe… for now.
After my time at Satchmi, I was about to buy a ticket for Deadpool & Wolverine (and watch it for the 5th time), but the last full show already started and I wanted to watch the film from start to finish, so… nah. Next time. I hope to watch it 1 more time before it gets out of theaters soon, and I’m looking forward to seeing it on Disney+ in a few months.
And then I remembered SaladStop. Crap. I almost forgot the bowls! So I picked them up, returned to the grocery, bought the milk I was supposed to buy earlier, then my Younger Brother picked me up and we went home.
I had another anxiety attack after coming home, but it was a minor one and my Younger Brother guided me in doing a breathing exercise to ease my anxiety. Thank you, my brother.
Tuesday, August 28
Yesterday, I was supposed to blog again after my nightly walk. But while I was walking, I checked my phone and discovered that my Instagram account was suspended. It has been a long time since my last update on Instagram, so the suspension was strange to me, and that led to another anxiety attack – another round of shortness of breath, my heart racing like hell. Suspended? Why did I get suspended?!
I had to stop walking and drop by a nearby Army Navy to relax my nerves and have a chicken quesadilla. My heart and stomach were happy after that tasty meal. And once again, I went home with my Younger Brother after my anxiety went away. Thank you again, my brother.
Today
An update on my suspended Instagram account: I made an appeal today, and after a few minutes the suspension has been lifted. That was fast, and that relaxed my nerves.
But that does not change the fact that I had 2 anxiety attacks in 2 days (3 if you count the minor one last Monday). It has been a long time since that happened. What the fuck is going on? I need to see my therapist Dr. M soon.
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Published at 7:31pm. Edits were made at 8:00pm and 10:11pm.
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