Category: Personal

Song of the Moment CXXI: Nine Inch Nails’ “Wish”

Since the last few days of May, the newest favorite song from Foo Fighters (my favorite band), “Child Actor,” has been my constant soundtrack. I even swore last June 1 that it would be the only song I’d listen to.

But the next day, I had to break that oath because I saw a glimpse of hope. While it couldn’t light up the dark room I’m currently in the way I wanted to, it’s still a source of light. Then I remembered something an old friend told me: “Focus on the glimpses of hope.” So, I started taking better care of myself, stopped punishing myself by listening to only one song, and went back to something familiar: my daily playlist.

Aside from the Foos songs I truly loved, the song I listened to the most recently is “Wish,” my favorite song from industrial rock legends Nine Inch Nails. It’s perhaps the only aggressively loud song that could appropriately scream my recent disappointments and exasperations. Yes, I’ve been doing my best to focus on the smallest lights, but that doesn’t mean I can’t yell through the dark. I need that kind of catharsis, and for the past several weeks, “Wish” has given that.

The music video of Nine Inch Nails’ “Wish.”

How disappointed and exasperated am I? To quote the chorus:

Wish there was something real
Wish there was something true
Wish there was something real
In this world full of you

And that is why “Wish” by Nine Inch Nails is my Song of the Moment.

See you in the next post.

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10-Minute Warning CCV

Written at 3:16pm today. Oh, hell yeah!

I had a different post theme for today, but I will just write another Minute Warning post because I was incredibly loaded with work earlier.

Aside from Always Watching (my series of Person of Interest episode reviews), I have been working on another passion project: my affogato diary. So far, I’ve tried at least five different affogatos from different cafes, and I’m thinking of adding another to my list this afternoon. But there’s a dilemma: I want to try the cafe’s affogato today before they sadly close for good tomorrow, and as I type this, it’s raining cats and dogs. I hope the rain becomes lighter later.

I’ve been watching a different show, too: The Boys. I have a lot of thoughts about what I’ve seen so far. At the moment, I will share three. Firstly, in my opinion, the second season was better than the first. Also, whenever Homelander (the invincible yet cruel head of the superhero group The Seven) shows his true colors, it’s amazingly frightening. And the heart of the black ops team, The Boys, the caring Marvin T. Milk (aka Mother’s Milk), may be my favorite character by far. Nice name, sir.

My ten-minute warning is almost up, and the rain has stopped as well. Excellent. I will prepare to go out now.

See you in the next post, and have a nice week ahead!

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10-Minute Warning CCIV

Last June 19, Friday, weeks after dark clouds hovered above me again, I felt tired of those clouds and focused more on the glimpses of hope (as an old friend would call it). A few people actually helped me focus those glimpses through good food and warm conversation, and I truly appreciate them. And believe me: even if I’m silent and in the dark sometimes, I still appreciate even the simplest act of kindness.

After a good weekend (particularly for my mental health), this afternoon happened. I had a productive day, but then I remembered one thing that started the most recent crisis, and something in me snapped. I also remember the goals I want to achieve a week after my birthday (and the mission I have to do to achieve that), but then again, will it even undo the crisis? It’s uncertain, and somehow my blood is boiling because of it.

Fuck this. I need an affogato tonight.

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